I really envy with students
nowadays. I think they are so lucky because they acquire education system which
is better than what I got in couple years ago. One of the lucks is English
learning given from kindergarten (or may be children in playgroup have
been taught English too?). While I
remember, I got my first English lesson when I was 4th grade in elementary
school. It was around 2001. So, what I did in kindergarten? I think I just drew
or colored or cut the pictures. I even didn’t know letters or numbers yet.
Anyway, I can say that English is the only subject with stable grade that I’ve ever had. I always got 8 or 9 in my school report, and it happened until I was in senior high school. Of course it made me be confidence with my English. Moreover, I wanted to choose English Literature as my major in college. I wanted to register this major via PMDK (one of tracks to go to college which is based on school report). But at the end, because of some of reasons, I canceled it.
It’s kinda God has been written my future to not be separated with English language. Even though I canceled my plan to go to English Literature, and I chose major of Communication Science, but I didn’t know why I chose English class which means that all of the subjects will be delivered in English. I felt like I’m going to die when I knew this truth. Then I realized that I had made a mistake when I filled the online registration form. I chose the wrong class.
At that time I thought God was kidding me. It was true that I got high grade in my school report for English subject, but I thought that just good grade was not enough for study in English class. High grade just showed that I was good in theory, but how about the practice? Even I never exercised my speaking skills. My pronunciation was poor too. Then how can I pass from colleges, and how can I survive in English class, I had no idea. I also had nothing to do because I couldn’t move to regular class which uses Bahasa. The major policy didn’t allow students from English class move to regular class.When my lectures started, surely it made me shock because my worry was proved. In the class, I met some of friends who are pretty smart in English. Especially for their speaking skill, it was so perfect. They spoke fluently with so damn good pronunciation, seems like they had spoken English from their born. But I still could breathe when I knew that more than half of my classmates were just like me where our proficiency in English was intermediate.
I had believed that language is all about habit. Because of my pretension to have ability in speak English fluently, so I thought that it was my huge chance. By stayed in English class, I hoped it would upgrade my English step by step.I had hard time in the first semester where all of the subjects were delivered in English. My lecturers taught the lectures in English. I got materials of lectures such as slide presentations, books, and journals in English. I did my tasks, for essays or presentations in English too.For tasks such as essays or presentations, I still could do it well. At least, I could open the dictionary. I still could write even though with not appropriate grammar.
The hardest parts to me are presentation tasks, where my speaking ability was so poor, and when the lecturers delivered subjects in English, where my listening was not really good too. But no matter what, I did my best and tried so hard to understand and…survived in English class.I ever felt down. I ever thought that I wouldn’t make it. But some of lecturers seem like understood me and my friends, that we got so hard time in English class. We focused in our English too much, and it made us forget that we were in communication major, not in English lecture.
Some of lecturers also understood when they found our mess grammar. They understood if we made mistakes in pronunciation, and then corrected our wrong spelling. They gave us motivation too. “Just believe that you can do it,” it was one of the kind words that I’ve remembered until today.Besides that, because selection system did not test new students for English skills, our lecturers couldn’t blame us, or questioned why students with poor English skill were in English class
At the end of the first semester, I thought I got miracle when I knew that my grade point was 3.5. Absolutely, I was so happy, although at the same time I felt that it was unbelievable. But still, what I had achieved made me promised myself that I must do better in the second semester.....In fact, in the next semester, the intensity of using English decreased.
Finally I knew that my major actually was not ready enough to conduct an English class. One of the problems was the limitation of lecturers who could teach in English. Because of this problems, then some of lecturers applied bilingual class system where they explained the subject materials in Bahasa. But for essay tasks, we still wrote in English.In my last semester, I was so thankful that my undergraduate thesis was not written in English. I couldn’t imagine how if this task must be written in English too. May be I would ask for a translator to help me which means that I have to spent more cost, or I haven’t finished my study until now because I was too busy to correct grammar in my written.The regulation to take reference from (min.) 10 international journals was more than enough. At least, I just will be a little dizzy when I read it.
So, whether studying in English class for around 4 years made my English skills better? For speaking, I don’t think so. I’m still not confidence enough with my pronunciation. But for my writing and reading comprehension, I think they’ve become better. But especially for writing, I still learn more about grammar.At least now I can watch Korean drama with English subtitle although dictionary in my hands.From now I also have plan to write in English here to upgrade my writing skill.
Uhm, actually I also want to exercise my speaking skill. Why? Because now I know and realize that (active) English is one of requirements to apply job in all of big companies, and in order to the sentence of "Fluent in English both oral and written" won't scare me again.
PS: I would like to give free pass for you who are grammar nazi to correct me. Seriously I will be so grateful if you want to do it :D
Anyway, I can say that English is the only subject with stable grade that I’ve ever had. I always got 8 or 9 in my school report, and it happened until I was in senior high school. Of course it made me be confidence with my English. Moreover, I wanted to choose English Literature as my major in college. I wanted to register this major via PMDK (one of tracks to go to college which is based on school report). But at the end, because of some of reasons, I canceled it.
It’s kinda God has been written my future to not be separated with English language. Even though I canceled my plan to go to English Literature, and I chose major of Communication Science, but I didn’t know why I chose English class which means that all of the subjects will be delivered in English. I felt like I’m going to die when I knew this truth. Then I realized that I had made a mistake when I filled the online registration form. I chose the wrong class.
At that time I thought God was kidding me. It was true that I got high grade in my school report for English subject, but I thought that just good grade was not enough for study in English class. High grade just showed that I was good in theory, but how about the practice? Even I never exercised my speaking skills. My pronunciation was poor too. Then how can I pass from colleges, and how can I survive in English class, I had no idea. I also had nothing to do because I couldn’t move to regular class which uses Bahasa. The major policy didn’t allow students from English class move to regular class.When my lectures started, surely it made me shock because my worry was proved. In the class, I met some of friends who are pretty smart in English. Especially for their speaking skill, it was so perfect. They spoke fluently with so damn good pronunciation, seems like they had spoken English from their born. But I still could breathe when I knew that more than half of my classmates were just like me where our proficiency in English was intermediate.
I had believed that language is all about habit. Because of my pretension to have ability in speak English fluently, so I thought that it was my huge chance. By stayed in English class, I hoped it would upgrade my English step by step.I had hard time in the first semester where all of the subjects were delivered in English. My lecturers taught the lectures in English. I got materials of lectures such as slide presentations, books, and journals in English. I did my tasks, for essays or presentations in English too.For tasks such as essays or presentations, I still could do it well. At least, I could open the dictionary. I still could write even though with not appropriate grammar.
The hardest parts to me are presentation tasks, where my speaking ability was so poor, and when the lecturers delivered subjects in English, where my listening was not really good too. But no matter what, I did my best and tried so hard to understand and…survived in English class.I ever felt down. I ever thought that I wouldn’t make it. But some of lecturers seem like understood me and my friends, that we got so hard time in English class. We focused in our English too much, and it made us forget that we were in communication major, not in English lecture.
Some of lecturers also understood when they found our mess grammar. They understood if we made mistakes in pronunciation, and then corrected our wrong spelling. They gave us motivation too. “Just believe that you can do it,” it was one of the kind words that I’ve remembered until today.Besides that, because selection system did not test new students for English skills, our lecturers couldn’t blame us, or questioned why students with poor English skill were in English class
At the end of the first semester, I thought I got miracle when I knew that my grade point was 3.5. Absolutely, I was so happy, although at the same time I felt that it was unbelievable. But still, what I had achieved made me promised myself that I must do better in the second semester.....In fact, in the next semester, the intensity of using English decreased.
Finally I knew that my major actually was not ready enough to conduct an English class. One of the problems was the limitation of lecturers who could teach in English. Because of this problems, then some of lecturers applied bilingual class system where they explained the subject materials in Bahasa. But for essay tasks, we still wrote in English.In my last semester, I was so thankful that my undergraduate thesis was not written in English. I couldn’t imagine how if this task must be written in English too. May be I would ask for a translator to help me which means that I have to spent more cost, or I haven’t finished my study until now because I was too busy to correct grammar in my written.The regulation to take reference from (min.) 10 international journals was more than enough. At least, I just will be a little dizzy when I read it.
So, whether studying in English class for around 4 years made my English skills better? For speaking, I don’t think so. I’m still not confidence enough with my pronunciation. But for my writing and reading comprehension, I think they’ve become better. But especially for writing, I still learn more about grammar.At least now I can watch Korean drama with English subtitle although dictionary in my hands.From now I also have plan to write in English here to upgrade my writing skill.
Uhm, actually I also want to exercise my speaking skill. Why? Because now I know and realize that (active) English is one of requirements to apply job in all of big companies, and in order to the sentence of "Fluent in English both oral and written" won't scare me again.
PS: I would like to give free pass for you who are grammar nazi to correct me. Seriously I will be so grateful if you want to do it :D
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